This is short story about my life that mostly revolved on my quest to embracing and living my personal legend — a writer.
I was six years old when I knew that I wanted to become a writer. I would often write secretly in one corner of our house using the blank pages of my school notebook. I didn’t tell my parents that I wanted to become a writer because I fear that they will not understand and support me.
One usual morning, I told my father that I love to write and this was what he told me, “Writer? It is not a good career. It will not give you money to bring food on the table when you grow up.”
I was right, they will not support me on the thing that makes me happy.
Growing up, I would still sneak moments to write but I started losing confidence in myself. I was bad in grammar and knew very little in vocabulary.
“I couldn’t be a writer,” I told myself.
When I was nearing to finish high school, I started considering what college course I should take. Deep in my heart, all I wanted to do is write and take a creative writing course in a university. But every time I would think about it, the voice of my father would play inside my head… “Writer? It is not a good career. It will not give you money to bring food on the table when you grow up.”
There I was, afraid that my desire to pursue writing was wrong as it will not give me enough money to help the family, and the insecurity that I was not good in writing, I pursued a different path. I took civil engineering in a university and became a licensed professional.
I worked under that profession for eight years but never did I forget writing.
Writing is more than a career. It is my passion. It is the only thing I know that I am meant to do. I kept on writing and learning. Little by little, I was improving. People started to notice my works and appreciate my thoughts, stories and ideas. Those who believed in me helped me to believe in myself again. I started writing stories, poems and random thoughts to channel my imagination and learnings in life.
The feeling of not getting the support and help from the people around me to pursue my passion is not the best feeling in the world. Many times that I considered giving up and forget everything about my craft, but I realized that these challenges are just part of the process to test how much heart and passion do I really have.
Now, I am living free and courageously. I know that God didn't call me to write for nothing. I am what I am, and so I will write.
Here in Creative Thoughts, my writings will reside. This is the channel I created to share my works. And I am dreaming that one day, the world will read my stories and will know me for who I am — a writer.
Having no formal educational background in writing, I used to view myself as an incompetent writer. The only qualification I had then, was my earnest dream to become a writer — to write my own stories and books. This dream brought me to different experiences and meeting different kinds of people from various fields.
I used to attend writing seminars and workshops. All of these contributed to my development as a writer, but every talk and live workshop I’ve attended, and every book I’ve read, still left me stagnant and uncertain of what I really want to do with the words that I write. I was still paralyzed and could not get things done. I learned how to write, but no one taught me how to actually finish writing a story or maintain a blog site — where the real action happens.
Through connections, I got introduced to a life coaching program wherein I learned the foundations and secrets to get my whole being into the real action. I learned many things about myself like the limiting beliefs I’ve had; and the wrong conceptions about myself that hindered me from being true and align to my purpose and values. Later on, I realized that coaching has always been innate to me even before I took this formal program. It just helped me enhance this another skill that I already had.
I discovered that because of my lack of clarity, I could not finish any writing projects that I would aspire. I could not establish my own writing voice because I kept switching my styles and approaches based on what people want to read. There were many other issues that served as my writing barriers for the longest time because I kept listening to what the society wants, rather than listening to my own inner voice.
When I was finally able to address my issues of clarity, authenticity and other past experiences that molded me by applying the effective techniques that I learned from that coaching program, everything else that I need followed — the discipline, focus and commitment to write, whatever it takes. No excuses anymore. Hence, this website, Creative Thoughts by Madylene was reborn.
And as I grow deeper as a writer, there is this another passion inside me that I could not just brush off — my passion to guide, inspire and motivate others to keep working on their dreams, specifically in writing. And to answer this call, I incorporated my skills in writing and life coaching to a more purposeful way to serve others — by giving accessible and one-on-one writing coaching program.
When I asked one my writing students, if she thinks I can really guide and coach other dreamers like her, she simply said:
“You were born to become a writer and a writing coach! You’ve motivated me in a way I never thought I can. I have so many insecurities with my writing skills, but you always made me feel that who I am is enough to keep going, one step at a time.”
If you think you need me to guide and equip you in your writing dream, send me an email @ email@example.com.
Writing to live, living to write,